The freakish jailhouse suicide of New England Patriots star Aaron Hernandez left his longtime girlfriend shattered and in shock.
In the two-part interview that airs Monday and Tuesday, television host Phil McGraw asked Jenkins-Hernandez of the couple's history, her longtime partner's rise to the National Football League and sentencing to life in prison.
Jenkins' interview airs Monday and Tuesday.
"He may have been at the wrong place, wrong time", she said. "It was a normal conversation, which makes me doubt so many things". "I wouldn't say I felt uncomfortable in my home".
"It's just not the Aaron that I know", Jenkins-Hernandez said in the interview. "We were going up a ladder to a positive direction".
"I truly don't. I've said it over and over. It seems so improbable that I can understand why someone would think that he was murdered or it cannot be him".
Hernandez, convicted of murdering Lloyd, was serving a life sentence at Souza-Baranowski Correctional Center in Shirley when a guard found him hanged from a bedsheet.
"I've said it over and over".
"It's a hard question", she replied.
In the far-reaching interview, airing over two days, Jenkins-Hernandez spoke on the Lloyd murder, the possibility of Hernandez's jailhouse relationships, and the contents of suicide notes. She said the letter had some "odd parts", one being that he addressed it to "Shay" instead of "Babe" or "Bae", as he usually referred to her.
"[It] was similar, but I feel like, again, you have nothing but time in there so I feel like it's easily duplicated or could be", the mom of Hernandez's only daughter said.
"I just know that the feedback I was getting from our last talk had nothing to do with any suicidal thoughts", Jenkins said. It was very short, I wanted more, wanted him to explain. I think he could have been saved.
A MA prisons report says Aaron Hernandez was outwardly elated after his acquittal in a double murder trial and did not appear to have thoughts of suicide in the days before he killed himself in his.
Monday's interview ended with Dr. Phil asking Jenkins-Hernandez about rumors that Hernandez might have been gay.
Psychologist Caryn Stark said suicide for is "very painful and shocking" for survivors because they tend to blame themselves.
"I don't know what to believe, to be honest with you. I feel like someone was in the wrong somewhere, and I want answers".
As for the line in the note that says, "I told you what was coming indirectly!"
Hernandez's lawyer, Jose Baez, also said investigations into his death, as well as conversations with his loved ones, showed no indication he was considering suicide.
Jenkins-Hernandez also said the band Hernandez referenced in his letter, Savage Garden, had no special meaning to them.
"I remember him saying, "Babe I've got to go. I would've told someone", she said".