Now, as the album is released across the globe, the 27-year-old is reflecting on the pain that inspired her first album in five years, admitting that she's thankful for her suffering and is ready to celebrate moving forward.
"HERE IT IS! My album is officially out in the universe. thank you for the souls that worked on this with me". In September 2018, she announced her decision to leave Instagram so she can live her life.
"If I show you all my demons, and we dive into the deep end / Would we crash and burn like every time before?" she continues.
She told Spotify: "Honestly, this album was kind of a nightmare to deal with, but in the best way possible".
This comes after claims most of her songs cast a negative light on her ex Justin Bieber with lyrics like, 'If I give you every piece of me, I know that you could drop it'.
She went on to explain that 'it's about vulnerability, it is about strength, having fun, not letting yourself stay in this dark place, because I tend to do that a lot. "I actually didn't know if that was gonna go anywhere". I wasn't just irrationally doing something to just be coming from a place of, 'Well, I'm over it.' That's not where I was. "And then something would happen to me and it would be very drastic so that it would take me somewhere else", she added. "It's just, everyone dates everyone, so it always seems to be within a little bubble and it's because it's safe right?" During the interview, the singer stated that dating in Hollywood is cliché. And so "rare" made me feel incredible and I ended up cutting the record before all the other stuff came together.
"You really wanna know where I've been all this time / So let me tell ya", she sings. "I was an addict, and it felt like I was seeing things I didn't want to see, like it was putting things in my head that I didn't want to care about".
She went on to speak about the title as she detailed how she got to the name Rare: "So I heard "rare" a few years ago and I just thought that was me, if that makes sense".